[ Behind that particular smile, lies a broken heart in beneath ]
Salah ape yang aku ade pade kau? Sampai kau nak hilangkan diri daripada aku? Nak senyapkan diri kau dari aku? Kenapa ketika saat ini? We've been in good talking terms, just started to be close to each other. I'm there, and you're there too. WHY? why must it be now? I tried so hard, i worked so hard for it, aku tepikan rasa insecure, and i shove all my anxiousness. Then, i was there. I made it. Halfway through there, still striving hard for it. BUT, why must you let it go? We are friends, rightt? FRIENDS dont leave each other. FRIENDS will never leave each other. Yes, your question may goes like this, ''If we were just friends, why must you cry when i hurt you for a bit, and wanna leave just to go on with my ambition?'' Well, if you insist on knowing the truth. Here it goes. Firstly, i've ever been left by a guy, but we were just friends. I'd care for him. But he was over-thinking. He thinks too much. Till one day, he couldn't make any decisions, and he let life goes on with the flow. He left, when i started loving him so deeply, and i didnt manage to hold our friendship anymore. I wasnt that strong. You know, i wasnt that weak previously, I had a beautiful life. But, after what had happened to me, and my precious heart, Everything SINKS. It drops so hard that i could barely pick it back up. I've lost him. YES, i've already lost someone. But yet, I DONT WANNA LOSE ANOTHER ONE... ''So, you're saying that, you love me?'' Yes, i love you, AS a friend. But, i dont know whats your feelings. Only thing that, what ive noticed is, you dont care much bout this. And you wouldn't wanna waste your time on such eirkyy things. Honestly, i cared for you so much! That i couldnt BEAR to lose you. I dont want history to repeat itself again. Please, just understand. But, if you insist. 100% insist, on leaving, and wanna fade yourself away from me, after thinking for umpteen times, and you're not turning your words back, not gonna regret.. Then, i will have to endure the pain, and i mean ANOTHER PAIN.
LIFE IS JUST UNFAIR! :'(
Never have i thought of having this kinda feeling again. Cause i just hate when there's a part that you have to let go. You leave, not cause you hate me, rightt? But, you wanna focus on something that you're aiming on. You will look for me right? You will meet me up again.. Well, i shall say, i will let you go.. Cause there's quote that says, 'If you really love that person, you let him go. And if he comes back to you, he is destined, to be YOURS.' And yes, i believe in that. No matter what happens. Ive promised myself, to wait. Just go. Alrightt? Don't drag.. Cause the more you drag, the more pain i get. It feels like you've been deeply stabbed with a knife, and the killer just slowly taking out that knife out of your body.. OUCH! that hurts, yah? ~_~
I feel giddy. And if you think that, that's you i'm talking about. Just think for a moment, and tell me how it feels like, eh? I bet you won't wanna share it with me. You will definitely gooo, SPEECHLESS. Yeah, PRECISELY. hahs :D Alright then, good mornights people ^^
TELL YOU WHAT, NEVER UNDERESTIMATE ME.
DARE ME, ANYTIME YOU WANT.
''ADIOOOOOOOOOOOOHS!''
-Eeqa Montel
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