Welcome 2016.... No? heh!

Hi Guys, it's been awhile ha? Hows life been going on so far? Hmm, great but yeah things happened. My dearest dad passed away last year May, which explains why i wasn't able to post anything. How time flies, so fast till i'd forgotten about my dad. He was being very nice to me since the start of 2015, till he became sick, weak & ill. I miss how much he used to call me & ask me where am i, fetching me from home to work. From home to school. From work back to home. Visiting for raya, during fasting month, went to Geylang for our family dinner. You see, things happened without you even knowing it. Now that i'm a full time employee, I seldom depend on my family members. Now, i rely on myself, be it financially or emotionally. It's been tough, but it's a definitely a lesson learnt.

Cheers to the new me~ Zul? As usual, but we are on a break now. Like, lets hang loose for now, if you know what i mean, Lol. He's been there during my tough times, he was there when i needed him but things happened & I'm not trying to rush things but I need more time to think what's best for me. Anyway, moving on... I'm an official KPOP fan now. I swear, I am. Haha, sorry but not sorry~ Way too many things happened but I got no idea how to express it here LOL. Check out my facebook & instagram guys, you may see what's happening from mid 2015 to now hiok! From Bigbang, to EXO, to GOT7 Fanmeet then to GOT7 fansign sesshhhh~ excited much ha? HEOL~ okay la guys, kereom, yeoggikaji, till here then! annyeong! baibai~

How was results.........

Annyeonghasaeyo!

Well, that's "Hello" in Korean. Okay, so how was I been doing for the past few days. No updates on blog, nothing. Why? Well, I was busy with work.....partially due to work. But the other reason was, I was disappointed. Because of being an unsuccessful applicant for Poly. I got no idea why but maybe, takde rezeki agaknya. Maybe luck was not on my side this time round. But what can I do? I can't be sitting there, hoping something can be done and not doing anything. Life has to go on......

How Irony?

At first I was in a dilemma between school and work. But now since I couldn't get to school, why must i feel sad and disappointed? Why must I even cry so badly for not getting a place in Poly? Why must I feel jealous and envy for those who get into Poly? Why should I feel this way? I don't know. This is just an absurd feeling, a sudden feeling where you know like you feel your heart been stabbed and its bleeding but no idea the exact reason why and like, why must you feel this way when in the first place, you don't even matter that much. But I've always been putting this into my mind, like, you should be confident and move on no matter what. Well apparently, yeah of course. I should have the strength to overcome all these. And i guess, i have to move on, cause no point hanging on something you can't achieve and not moving forward. Like being stuck there. Waiting..... but nothing's happening. So, yeah i should just work full time, gain experience and try again next year. 

But I wonder why.......

I've been making unachievable decisions. Like you know, you thought with this decision, you might get it, but in the end, you didn't. Yaaaaaa and it has been years. Well, let me give you an example. Previously, I was in O level, Private O though. And with O's, I'm able to apply for Higher Nitec. But instead, I go for Nitec. Which, wasted my one year in NITEC. Then, moving on, I should actually apply a course which has a major in it. Like, accounting, banking or something which there's a specific major in it. But instead, again, I chose the most general course, which was Business Admin, which you know, actually it's quite hard to find a job which I wanted, like working in bank or being an accountant. Haiya! Stupid me. Then, moving forward to Higher Nitec, when applying for Poly. Instead of choosing Temasek Poly for first choice, I chose SP, which obviously I don't think I can get into that school with a GPA of 3.1 only! 

So, you see? I've been making silly and stupid decisions. Which brings me to disappointment. Definitely, I just suck in making decisions. Sigh~

Well, let's drop the topic cause I just don't want to spoil my night because of this. I'm really not happy with certain things already and I don't want to add on to it. Sooooo, okay I'm at work now. Lol, what's Saturday when you have to work? I'm not in the mood to actually continue typing. I just don't feel needed and important. Okay, see ya later.

TOODLES

Back on February 8th 2015.............

As promised, let's talk about what had happened on the date mentioned above.

TAEYANG RISE IN SG 2015

What's about that?

Here it goes..................

On 16 January 2015 Friday, I bought the tickets.

And then... On 17 January 2015 Saturday, 

I went for the Fans Gathering at Bugis Junction Atrium

We had to exchange our tickets to get a coupon. In which, the emcees or hosts from 93.3FM will have a random pick from the box filled with coupon numbers. The lucky ones will be brought to the stage to win some prizes like Taeyang Rise CD, Teddy Bears, Torchlights and the exclusive prize, MEET & GREET SESSION WITH TAEYANG!

So the gathering session started, and there were some lucky ones who got to go up and win some prizes.....

My number hasn't been called since the session started. From afternoon, until almost evening. Skies starts to darken.. And the session almost ended. Until we get to the last game. Where we had to dance to Taeyang's song. The winner will get a MEET & GREET SESSION WITH TAEYANG AFTER CONCERT..... So, the numbers were called. and guess what? MY NUMBER WAS CALLED! And there you go...... I was up the stage, SURPRISINGLY.

SURPRISE RIGHT?!!!! SHOCKING RIGHT?!!! I KNOW RIGHT LAH BABE!

So the dance begin, and I met knew friends, Ain and Hana. The 3 of us won the game! And yes ofcourse, WE GOT TO MEET TAEYANG REAL LIVE! 

So here's the picture of us after registering our names for the meet & greet.

YES YES THIS IS FOR REAL. 

So I won Taeyang's RISE SG EXCLUSIVE CD..... 

MOVING ON.......!

On the concert day itself....

That's the band for the concert and the meet & greet.

 This was us queueing after the concert....for the meet & greet!

As soon as we met, WEFIE!

The stage, the view, the CLEAR VIEW. But most of all, THE DISTANCE! Very near right! ^^

After the concert though, sempat!

The moment that we have been waiting for..........

MEET & GREET! 

TADA!!!!

TELL ME! HOW CAN I NOT FEEL SO EXCITED, NERVOUS AND HAPPY ABOUT THIS?!!! IT'S LIVE YAW! IT'S FOR REAL! IT'S YOUNGBAE! IT'S TAEYANG! IN FRONT OF MY DAMN EYES!

Yeah, so there you go. A very interesting sorry indeed! For me though! I don't know for you lah interesting or not! My happiest day of my life! Taeyang and Bigbang just had to make my day. Like always! Thank you guys even though you don't really know that I exist. hehe!

Last picture for the day!

Okay I'm done with this, hahaha! tooooo happpyyyy lah i cannot! been smiling to myself and people will think that i'm crazy smiling and laughing, grinning from cheek to cheek while facing the computer. haha! okay then, goodnight guys~

Continuing from previous post.....

Hey guys, hello!

Sorry for the pause on the previous post. I somehow had a little job to do just now. And guess what? Off okay I'm off later! I can have my bloody rest, finally! chey as if my job is damn intense like that haha! and i guess my pay will be in on Monday...... Damn Big and Heavy Sigh~ I feel so draggy waiting for both my pay and results to be in. So, I'm sleepy and I just cant wait to end work which is in 3 hours' time. pffffft, and I was supposed to go for smoke break now but neh, i kinda feel lazy to go out. Cus' I'm sleepy deh! Oh you wanna know why? Cause, this gundu girl who's typing up her blog now, thought that she starts work at 6pm. But she forgot that today is Public Holiday, so her roster wrote she start at 7PM! Tell me. How gundu can she be? And that girl is me lah duh obviously! Omg! I could have an extra hour of sleep sia! Dammit! No wonder my colleague, Nat, said, "Eh Eeqa, why so early? Siang gila sia you." So i was like, I'm always early like 15 to 20 mins early. After that i realised at about 620pm, was waiting for Nat to punch out. But after which I was thinking, why Nat is not leaving? Then decided to check the roster and WALAH! I broke the world record for coming 1 and a half hour early from work. what the paaaaaak! Okay okay I know I am stupid hahaha! I myself thought so....! Wasted my sleep man! But no worries, I still can get my Good and Long sleep later on! But ofcourse I would have to accompany my mom to go Pasar first then balik and sleep. Wah confirm mata koyak rabak. Haha! 

SO WHAT'S FOR SUNDAY PLANS?

Basically, nothing. But like i have mentioned, I will be having an appointment, which I don't think I would need to explain and reveal what appointment that I will be having on this Sunday. Heh! Yeah, actually, those whom are close to me will know how low I would like to go. Because exposing and revealing yourself brings nothing but highly, SHAME. And, embarrassment too. So, I pretty much know more about myself. Which I dislike being judged and humiliated so much. It will definitely bring me down which I really don't like. Well, i bet most of you don't too right? 

Okay.... MOVING ON!! 

Okay what should I talk about now? 

Haha! Another pause fyi, received a call from Hayunni! Yay! Haha we talked about our results, friend's stuff, work and many more. Had to hang up the phone cause got customer lah so come kacau daun! Anyway, let me get back to the story that I actually intended to share. Yesterday night, I dreamt of err okay i should not say out the name right here. and it was kinda funny, of all people, i dreamt of that person. Quite weird. Haha, not interesting right? Okay lets drop the topic.

I WONDER......

Will there actually be someone or anyone reading my blog? I don't find my topic that interesting though. Well, why not make one?! Oh of course I will. Let's stop here and make a new one. 

Next up......

TAEYANG RISE CONCERT IN SINGAPORE 2015

It's TGIF!

Hooyah guys!

Finally it's friday. So, am I the only one who felt like this week went pass so fast? Or are others too? Haha! Anyway, planning for Zul's birthday party is up. Well, not going to mention here though. Afraid it might not turn out that well. Just help me pray that the weather will behave itself on that day yah! Heh, i've been active on my blog lately. The moment when i stepped on work and face the computer, the thing that will come up into my mind was, "MY BLOG!" Weird ha? I know right. But it's okay though, it's fun typing and sharing my feelings here. Felt like at most contented. So, what's for dinner? Pasta. Oh no, didn't take a photo of that. All I have is this.....

Hehe! And i'm full. Thank God! So, had some work to do earlier on. And people around me are like ordering food which is tempting me OMG. Okay...... I need a 'BRB'. Got some work to do! Ttyl guys~

ITE GPA Results

Hi guys! It's Friday night already! And it's the 3rd April! ITE GPA Grades and Results will be out in a few hours' time. By the time I awake, confirm plus chop can check results already. I don't know why I'm nervous for ITE Results. I'm supposed to be nervous for Poly Results which is on 9 April, Thursday. Haha, all the best to me and those who applied too!

As usual, what's thursday if it's not working day? It's EVE of Good Friday and it's Good Friday soon! Best yah most of them get to rest. Me? Have to work ah, what else? All party2, I working. Haha, what to do. Work mah! Anyway, to kill my boredom, I'm watching 3 Idiots, a bollywood movie on youtube. Just to kill some time lah they say >.< Talking about work and school results. What's up with my life? What has been happening throughout the years I've not updated my blog? 

Nehhhh... Nothing much though. Way too many things had happened, too busy with school, work. Nothing that interesting. Alhamdulillah Zul got his full time job. Alhamdulillah. It has been almost a week he started working this full time job. Yeah, ramai tanya, korang ni kerja keras, nak simpan duit untuk khawin ke? Haha, may be or may not be. In Shaa Allah, biarlah Allah yang tentukan. Kita hanya merancang dan berusaha sahaja. 

So how's Higher Nitec?

Been good, learn quite a number things, had quite a vast experience throughout my life in that school. Be it good or bad, it is still an experience. Met new friends. Knew someone who were my friend, but I was betrayed and became strangers. A nice lady actually, but okay nevermind not important to elaborate more about this. So, eventually I got closer with a bunch of hyper active ladies, which actually they were the best among the rest. We were in the same class, same job. But you know, things happened. Speaking about them, I miss them though. Since I've moved and we graduated, we seldom get to meet each other. Yet, we still got contact through message, whatsapp, facebook and such. But yeah, not to fret on that. Life goes on though.

This sunday, I will be having an appointment. Which is in the morning, so I had to ask for a damn last minute off on Saturday cause I doubt I could wake up on time after my night shift. Honestly speaking, I am very glad and thankful, very much appreciated for the help and treatment that has been given to me from this company. My Front Desk Executive & Admin Executive cum Personal Assistant, had helped alot throughout my training and contract period. I would really love to continue working here, i swear. It's very hard to find a job which has a very nice environment and kind colleagues. I won't worry much about politic issues, it's very common to see and experience political issues at every organisation. It's the matter of the people, who may or may not able overcome it. 

Oh look! It's 1:33am, I might need my smoke break since there's someone to look over my desk. So yeah, will definitely update again. A few minutes time I guess? Or hours? I need my bollywood therapy though. Hahaha! Okay see ya :)

Tooooodles~

HI WEDNESDAY NIGHT!

Hey hey hey! I'm still at work though. Ending in like about, 5 mins time? 5 mins, still can blog eh? And guess what? I GOT PAY CHEQUE YAW! YAHOOO!

Hahaha, Alhamdulillah. Syukur Alhamdulillah! Finally, my pay! That's quite fast actually. Oh and ya guess another thing! DID LOBANG AND HIS CAMP MATE FROM AH BOYS TO MEN JUST CAME IN TO THE OFFICE?!!!! OMGEE! Yeah, they came in to the office to collect Joshua's member card. And Joshua was a little bit tipsy. But Lobang aka Weiliang was just too cute and EXTRA FRIENDLY! omg i don't know why am I so excited? HAHA! okay lah need to do closing actually, but I don't mind. Need to log off and switch off the lights though.

Okay, Selamat Malam cum Pagi people!

For those who read, haha waste time only. HAHA! okay bye for real now.

Let's welcome April in the year of 2015!

The year 2015 past quite fast and it's already April? I wonder why time flies so fast. Anyway, 1 more month to Zul's birthday, and 1 more month to out 3rd Year. It's been tough, the journey together, isn't easy. It has been a rough journey for us. But Thank God we manage to go through it together. More years to go, In Shaa Allah. And hey! yeah, i'm at work though. ending in 15 mins time. It's kinda bored on a Tuesday night, but yeah we can do what we want when there's nobody in the office. Alhamdulillah it has been a month working here. My cheque will be ready between 1 to 7 of April. Can't wait to get my pay. Oh! Poly results will be out on 9th of April. I'm not pretty sure whether i should feel nervous, or thrilled or delighted or excited. It's hard to make people understand why we need to work for our own money for the sake of our own expenses. But here's a message for some of you who would like to understand more of what is going through in my mind right now.

Being the youngest child of age 22 in the year of 2015, it is hard to make the move which in a situation where you would like to spend and shop for your own, cause, HEY, i'm growing & i wanna enjoy before i lose the chance. At this kind of age, is where you would like to meet new people, travel and shop for your own clothes & makeups! But thinking through, what people has been saying and advising me was, Education is important as it helps you to get a better job with a better pay. Yeah, i understand that. But when you have bills and own groceries to pay, you find it work is more important than anything else. I mean, Money. I mean, not that we can't work while schooling. We can do so, why not? I mean i have been working plus schooling throughout the 3 years in ITE. But the thing is, it's different when you got a place in Poly. I'm not saying that I will get a place in Poly, but it will be GREAT to be a poly student. It really means that the hard work I made really does paid off! You know, this is what i'm talking about. Dilemma, Confusion, Complicated.

I was thinking of having a break and to work these months until the next application of Poly is out. Meaning, next year, 2016. But they said it will be different next year and you know why wanna waste another year? Well to me, i guess my idea was to work on a period of time and do up some savings. Once I'm stable, I may continue schooling. But, that's another point. I won't be sure if i would have the interest to continue schooling by then. Haaaaa. another confusion. Another dilemma. 

But, it's okay though. No big deal. For me now, if i do get into poly, I will be the happiest girl in the world. Like, you know? You finally made your family proud for things that you've done! I won't miss the chance though, really! But the thing is now, I don't know if i do get into poly, or no. That's the only thing that couldnt stop me from thinking, and making me stuck with my plans for Zul's birthday surprise. I will leave this to Allah S.W.T, may he lead me to the right path. Amin.

Okay guys, gotta go. See ya tomorrow! I mean, will continue typing tomorrow. Gotta do closing now! Well, who doesn't wants to go home right? Thank you for reading!

GOODNIGHT <3

Hello... It's Saturday?

Hello Saturday....

It's Saturday already? I mean, Sunday morning.. Guess what? I'm at work though.

Work's pretty good, manage to know and talk comfortably with people now. I mean, my colleagues though. Everything is going well and smooth. Thank Allah for that. 

ANYWAY......

It's off day tomorrow and Monday! Finally. & Pay is going to be in by next week. Omg, why do I feel soooooooo..... long to get my first pay? Definitely need to pay my BILLS first. these outstanding bills, have to be stable and fix with this job so I won't get stuck with these M**F** bills to pay. So! Meeting my baby boy tomorrow. No money but that doesn't mean we can't meet. TUI BOH? No matter what, i still want to meet him cause I miss him so much. Oh and BY THE MADERHFAKIN WAY..... Did i tell you where was my previous job was? Well, I've been working there for a year plus, and reason i quit that job was? GRADUATE ALREADY LAH SIO. haha! Do I sound so kaupeh? I hope not. Don't mind me though. Graduate already, so need more hours of work mah! 

MOVING ON!

Have you guys watched any KPOP Dramas, Comedy or even KPOP BANDS?! Guess what? "HAIYA KPOP HA?!" HAHA! yes, KPOP, Korean Band! I'm in love with them now. It's been almost two years admiring them. My FIRST ever concert was SG50 COUNTDOWN, BIGBANG CONCERT AT MARINA FLOAT!

Are you even shocked that i'm into KPOP now? haha! DONT BE. my second concert was TAEYANG RISE IN SG. WHICH I......eventually.....GOT....to meet TAEYANG....

REAL LIFE! YES! FACE-TO-FACE! Meet & Greet Session lah dey.. But too bad, the meet and greet lasted like less than 5 MINUTES? Freaking pissed though. BUT STILL. SIGHH, EYES CONTACT ENOUGH LAH SIO. 

Okay lah, that's all for now. Ending work soon.. Can't wait to get home and lie down on my BED! okay, continue on Tuesday maybe? 

GOODNIGHT GUYS!