Stupid Mistake, the biggest mistake ever.

thanks for making me realize. how rude i am towards you. not only you, to others too.

what i have to do now is just to change my attitude. 

hey Eeqa, bukan kali ni je laah kau cakap. dah banyak orang tegor kau. 

terutama sekali, mama. your dearest mother, itu pon kau mase tak sedar.

mungkin, benda ini semua berlaku, ada hikmahnya.

sekarang, aku kehilangan seseorang insan yang amat aku sayangi.

yang begitu bererti dalam hidup aku.

tanpa dia, tanpa hidopku yang bahagia.

i guess, its really my big mistake, for not realising what is actually happening.

i'm just so guilty.. hati pilu, sayu. sedih, tapi nak buat macam mana. 

aku harus meneruskan hidop ini.

kalau aku tak bersifat kurang ajar, mesti tak jadi macam gini.

sometimes, aku hanya memikirkan diri sendiri.

tidak memikirkan pasal orang lain yang dah bersabar ngan prangai aku.

pecah seribu, hancor berderai ~ 

takde gunanya aku menangis, sebab benda dah berlaku.. 

i have to redha, i have to accept the fact that such miracles do happen..

Dear Best Friend, 

i'm sorry for what have happened. yet, i won't force you of your own decision. i have to accept the fact that, you're giving up with my fcuked up attitude. i love you and i miss you yet, i can't do anything. apape pon terjadi, aku takkan pernah nak salahkan kau. cuma, aku selalu teringatkan masa indah kita together. the bitterness, the sweetness throughout our friendship together. Maybe i went overboard, and yes, thats my stupid mistake. I'm giving you hopes that you aint gonna entertain.

Now, you wont even kuasa, dah tak kuasa nak layan prangai merepek aku.

Oh God, why must this happen to me?..

Kekel, i know, i've been very rude towards you, and because of that, we became so far apart yet so near in my heart. I dontt blame you for scolding and vent vulgars towards me, cause i did truly went overboard till it gets you so irritated plus sick and tired of me. I just need you in my life, but its stated that, we're arent anything. Yet, i wont forget you, and i cant forget you.. Live your life to the fullest. and enjoy whenever you are able to. 

ahh damn, i sincerely cant forget you. It's hard. really  ~ i'm sorry Best friend, i'm sorry.

You're the very most important person in my life. i miss you :'(

I'M SORRY :'(

You know, sometimes everything start to change without we even realising it. And sometimes, we've yet to realized it until such miracles happened in our life. 'Sorry' is just a word, that describes only the meaning of feeling guilty and wanna apologize.

i'm SPEECHLESS yet HEARTBROKEN ~

till here, like once again. i'm the loser, and i lose. i failed, for the second time.

till then, i wont wanna suffer, i wanna be strong (':

take care,