dead BLOG. damn ~

the biggest mistake ever. being so sensitive and rude.

im just so speechless, but however.. i've realised my mistake. and i fully and deeply regret if what happened. but, it's just too late. too late ~ TOO LATE!

i'm glad that i have my two boy friends. my BROTHER , Yayat. and my BESTFRIEND , Kekel.

i fully and really appreciate having them around. and i cant bear losing them. 

they are the best. i thought they're just some real JERKS that are the same like other guys, other maniatic guys which are a real JERK but i'm mistaken. they're not. 

how lovely of them, caring bout me. when i dont even realised.

they are my brothers. my best friend. my partners. my family. 

they taught me alot of things. 

those things that i don't know. 

don't quite know. but when they talked it out with me personally, it ran through my mind. 

and it does ring a bell. like 'DING!'

my dearest brothers, friends, BOTH OF YOU ARE TRULY THE BEST.

i'm sorry for being so rude, bad attitude towards y'all.

i didnt realised it until its just too late.

but yeah, letting go. i'm trying to move on. 

please don't hate me.

please treat me normally like how you used to.

i'm so sorry, for what have happened. i'm just too weak to admit that its my fault.

but now, its too late for everything, but im trying too boost up confidence.

to move on, to let go and be strong.

DEAR YAYAT, 

KAU BETOL2 BUAT AKU SEDAR SAPE DIRI AKU NIE. AND THANKS TO YOU, IM TRYING MY BEST TO MOVE ON AND BE STRONG. I'M SORRY IF I DID HURT YOU, MADE YOU MAD. IM GLAD THAT YOU'RE STILL PATIENCE WITH MY ATTITUDE THAT REALLY SUCKS TO THE CORE.

HONESTLY, I LOVE YA BROTHER. I ADMIT, ITS MY FAULT BEING TOO RUDE TO HIM. CAUSE AKU TAKBOLEY SABAR. AND AKU ADMIT THAT AKU LEMAH. AND AKU BODOH. BUT NO MATTER WHAT, I HOPE YOU DONT STOP ADVISING, CHEERING AND BUILT UP MY CONFIDENCE MORE. IM REALLY SORRY, MD NURHIDAYAT BIN SUHAIMI. IF YOU YET TO READ THIS, THATS GOOD. CAUSE AKU MALU NAK CAKAP APAPE. TAPI APAPE PON, SAYANG YAYAT ~

DEAR KEKEL, 

I'M TRULY SORRY FOR WHAT HAVE HAPPENED BETWEEN US. AKU TAU, KAU DAH BANYAK BERSABAR DENGAN PERANGAI AKU. AKU TERIMA APAPE PON YANG KAU NAK CAKAP. I'M JUST SO SORRY. IT'S MY BIGGEST MISTAKE. AKU TAU, AKU HANYA PIKIR PASAL DIRI SENDIRI, TAPI AKU TATAU APER YANG KAU MERASAKAN. MAAFKAN AKU.. 

AKU TAK SALAHKAN KAU UTK MAKI KE MARAH AKU. SEBAB AKU TAU, DARI PERMULAAN, AKU YANG PUNCANYA. BUT I HOPE ITS NOT TOO LATE FOR ME TO APOLOGISE. 

YOU KNOW, KEKEL..

SOMETIMES I'D  OVER-REACTED. WHICH INDEED, MENAMBAHKAN LAGI MASALAH. MAYBE IM TOO LIKE, WEAK?.. I'M BAD. AND I KNOW THAT. I'M SORRY.

ENDURANCE, is a bliss. endure the pain, redha. every single problem or disaster you get, 

just be calm, not being so temperamental. plus, it wont solve your problem. 

remain calm, and then, try to think. think, and keep your mind moving. 

in life, there's two paths to lead.

one is the bad, and the other is good.

while thinking, dont just stop at one path, be wise.

think in alot of ways, think more. talk less. but!

dont jump to conclusions. plus, do not think of solving your problem, yet to the negative. 

but whatever it is, just try and solve your problem.

moreover, think wisely and dont GIVE UP!

therefore, you will lead to victory ! 

HAHA. K, aku dah malam-malam gini ada siket SOT uh, so..

aku tatau aper nak cakap. 

since blog has been dead.

6 MORE DAYS TO GO, to 1 year 5 months.

i've been working at expo, robinsons under GOLDLION.

then transferred to Isetan parkway. omg! keje keje keje. penat dooh!

haha, ohh well. pat robinsons expo, kee ngan Yayat and Kekel. Gerek!

lol. makan samer-samer. and balek samer-samer. haha! (:

unfortunately, tak dapat keje same2 yang kekel pat isetan katong.

nevermind. hmm, aku kene incharge pat sana, since the full time in charge balek kampong pat Malaysia, celebrate CNY. Hhaaha!

LOLS. 

mendak pe? besok tak keje. nari ley tido LAMBAT! haha, tapi aku pat umah Yayat tau.

hahs, otak lari sia! buntu, confused. lucky got Yayat. he explained everything! i'm glad he's here for me.

hmm..

Dah lah dah lah ~ aku ngantok uh. nak rehat mata sekejap hor !

hmm, pape calling calling okey dearies? LOVE YA. 

take care (: and see you when i see you ! (:

AKU RINDU KAU LAAA! FAHAM?.. SORRY.